Knowing that we wanted to start a family right away, I went off the pill 4 months before the wedding, started taking prenatal vitamins, and began tracking my cycles. I wanted to be proactive to avoid wasting any time. I started using OPK kits in order to determine my ovulation date each month. Twenty eight day cycles, day 18 ovulation. This occurred like clockwork each month and I felt optimistic that it would happen for us within a few months of trying. How could it not!?
While roaming the aisles of the Kate Spade outlet looking for bridesmaid gifts, I came across the cutest polka-dot diaper bag. I convinced Jeff to buy it for me and stash it away in a closet until the day I could use it. I was so excited to get married and begin the next chapter of our life together. Looking back, I am angry at that naive woman I used to be, and roll my eyes at every woman who shares that same blissful ignorance now.
“Staring at the blank page before you
Open up the dirty window (window, window, window)
Reaching for something in the distance
So close you can almost taste it (taste it, taste it, taste it)”
Unwritten by By Natasha Bedingfield
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