Pregnant!!
We are so excited to learn that we fell pregnant on our honeymoon! Three different home pregnancy tests confirmed our excitement and each line was getting darker and darker by the day! Jeff even went out and bought some cute onesies to surprise me with.
I throw myself into the Pinterest world and begin to plan the most special ways to tell our families. The 12 week marker was right around Thanksgiving and there are so many cute ideas to choose from! (Bun in the Oven, Little Turkey, etc). Our due date would be the first week of May and as a teacher, that is such a dream for maternity leave!
On September 8th, I head to graduate class at RIC to sit for 3 hours, (some of which I have to admit I spent looking up baby names). As I am walking out of the building with a classmate, she starts telling me about her newborn daughter and how difficult it is to go to school right after giving birth. I was thinking about how grateful I am that I will be done with Grad school by the time we have our baby. It was at that exact moment that my world stopped. I could feel bleeding and cramping and I climbed in the car to call my husband crying. The ride home felt like an eternity but Jeff stayed on the line, trying to comfort me. After pulling in our driveway, I ran through the door, grabbed a home pregnant test (HPT), saw the blood, and my fears were confirmed. Negative. Jeff took me for a drive to look at the water (our most favorite place) and tears rolled down my cheeks as this song played on the radio:
“…blue looks good on the sky
Looks good on that neon buzzin’ on the wall
But darling, it don’t match your eyes”
Blue Ain’t Your Color by Keith Urban
breakdown and rally 