Fear is a Liar – September 17, 2018

The Dr called to tell us that the biopsy results indicate nothing wrong with my uterus, and the ERA results indicate that I am 120 hours receptive. The first transfer must have been a case of “bad luck” and we are ready to try again next cycle.

August 31: Cycle begins, start taking estrogen.

Sept 6th: Bloodwork and ultrasound. The nurse calls to tell me that my uterine lining is not thickening as quickly as last time, and I need to start taking the estrogen both orally and vaginally. I had to ask her to repeat that, but I did in fact hear her correctly. Same pill, two different entrances.

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Although it was news to me, it is not uncommon for that to happen. Every cycle is different.

Sept 11th: Bloodwork and ultrasound. Nurses call to tell me that the lining looks good and I can start the PIO shots tomorrow.

Sept 12th: Jeff is away and I have the day off from school, so I have a friend’s mom inject the PIO for me at exactly 11:00 am.

Sept 13-14: Jeff is still away, but I have to work, so I have to leave the classroom and have the school nurse do it!

Sept 15-16: Jeff is back and he can do the shots.

Sept 17th: Transfer! This one feels a little different than last time. We are cautiously optimistic.

“When he told you you’re not good enough
When he told you you’re not right
When he told you you’re not strong enough
To put up a good fight
When he told you you’re not worthy
When he told you you’re not loved
When he told you you’re not beautiful
That you’ll never be enough
Fear, he is a liar
He will take your breath
Stop you in your steps
Fear he is a liar
He will rob your rest
Steal your happiness
Cast your fear in the fire
‘Cause fear he is a liar”

Fear is a Liar by Zach Williams

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