Hope. We cling to the hope that the first two transfers were just bad luck, and this time it’s going to be different; this time we are going to bring our baby home. I started documenting the PIO shots so that we can include them in our baby book someday.
The past 2 transfers we kept to ourselves because we hoped that we could maintain some privacy, and surprise others when it worked. This time, we told a select few that we knew could help us manage the stress of the weeks to come and support us either way.
I bought all the ‘stuff’ that would help our embryo implant: pineapple core, brazil nuts, pomegranate juice. I stopped alcohol and caffeine weeks before. I increased my fruits and vegetables. Embryo transfer, here we come!
The Staff at the front desk (Jeanne) wished us luck and sent us upstairs! The Dr. greeted us at the door and said, “Hey sweetheart how ya doing?” This was not typical of her, but we felt like we had so many people on our side. The Dr. showed us a picture of our embryo and told us it looked great. Tears rolled down my cheeks as I said, “Third times a charm.” The embryologist joked about being our first sitter, and the nurse joked about avoiding housework for a few days. The transfer went wonderful and they told us that we would likely be cancelling our ‘IVF follow up visit with the Dr’ because we were going to be successful! We took a ‘family photo’ with our embryo dish and two fake dogs (yes, again).
HOPE.
I decided I am going to keep my feet warm, only eat warm foods, increase my water intake, monitor my sleep patterns. No measure is too small to help us get to our baby!!!
November 22 (3dpt) I had tiny pink spotting which went away, so I can only pray it is implantation bleeding. Transfer 2 it continued on and led to an early period. This was different, this was hopeful.
“Look at the stars,
Look how they shine for you,
And everything you do,
Yeah, they were all yellow”
Yellow by Coldplay
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